Sixty seconds – Chapter 7

Just a quick update while I’m waiting for my lunchtime before I head for school: 

1. Skin is getting better. My chinese new year break was pretty awesome with my skin getting a lot better than before after applying a tcm cream recommended by one of my dad’s colleagues. I’m still going to reserve my thoughts on this cream though, I’m going to apply this for another two more weeks until my wounds heal so that I could stop using the cream fully to see if there are any adverse effects. 

2. Hair is falling in crazy amounts. This has been going on for weeks and my originally thick hair has become so thin and fragile that I simply don’t know what to say. The thing is, my scalp is not longer dry and flaky but oily. I don’t know if I should increase the frequency of washing my hair or do something else about it. 

Generally those were the major things that happened for the month. I am also busy with my revision for midterms for the past week though I wasn’t entirely productive. But now that I am feeling better, I should be focusing more on my academics so that I can do well for this semester and catch up with my grades while I still can. 

That’s all for now! 

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Sixty seconds – Chapter 6

6 months into tsw! A pat to myself on the back for enduring 6 months of ups and downs. The most dramatic 6 months of my entire life so far and more to come. I think I’m gonna stick to one post per month format from now on because I’m trying really hard to juggle between my schoolwork and keeping myself stress-free at the same time.

For the past few days I’ve been working hard in planning a good friend’s 21st surprise and today’s gonna be D-DAY! I’m excited yet anxious at the same time because I’m not sure if she’ll like the surprise but it has been a long time since I’ve done something for a friend so I’m quite pleased with myself for that. 🙂 Regardless of what happens later today, I’m so gonna work hard to catch up with my schoolwork during the weekends. I haven’t been able to study much because my brain and heart was so preoccupied by this surprise event. I really hope she likes it. *crosses fingers*

Back to my skin, nearly a month into moisturizer withdrawal, my skin looks dry in general but my arms are generally faring better in terms of dryness. Of course my skin still itches everyday and there are times where I feel better and times where I feel miserable. But generally, I am not that afraid to head out anymore but I still can’t sit for long because my thighs would start heating up and the itch would follow right after. My skin still itches when I sleep but generally I could sleep slightly better than before. At least it does feel like I’ve gotten some rest unlike a month ago where I feel like a zombie due to the major lack of rest. I’ve been dropping lots of hair though! Hopefully the hair grows back soon before bald patches start appearing.

There’s so much clothes that I wanna buy but I’m holding it all in because my skin is still quite sensitive to lots of material. Can’t wait for my skin to be able to tolerate them though because I need new clothes badly 😭

Was initially in a bad mood before I started writing this post. But at least I’m glad that I’m updating my blog! On a side note, I’m trying to keep up with the hobby to read. I read whenever I’m traveling outside and there are so many good books to read! For a start, I’m aiming to finish reading 20 books by the end of the year! Hopefully I’ll be able to exceed that aim haha.

I shall end off the post now because it’s time to sleep! Here’s hoping that today will be a good good day! 🙂 cheers!

Sixty seconds – Chapter 5

I’m finally onto the 5th month of withdrawal! Hooray~ 🙂

During my absence on this blog I’ve been spending my new year quietly at home while mentally preparing myself for the Bangkok trip that lasted from 3rd to 8th Jan. I would normally be rather elated at the thought of going overseas, especially Bangkok, because it’s a shopping paradise! However, it was definitely a bad and disastrous trip for me. My skin screamed badly to be back home ever since I boarded the plane to Bangkok as the plane environment was super dry which irritated my skin badly. Also, I failed to take into consideration of the fact that my hotel room would not be as humidified as the environment I experience back at home. As a result, I suffered a lot along with my skin throughout the entire trip. Who can I blame but myself for my own negligence. Sigh. I guess I made the trip rather unenjoyable for my family as well as they saw how I suffered during the trip and they had to sacrifice their shopping time so that I could stay in the hotel room, specifically the bathroom where it has the most moisture in the air, and let my skin take a breather.

During and after the trip I’ve thought through quite a lot, and as a result I am currently not moisturizing my skin with any creams, balms, in hopes that it would make the itch more bearable for me to handle as I attempt to study from home for the new semester. I was always tempted to give moisturizer withdrawal a try but I refrained myself from doing so because I had to step out of my house pretty often and I thought that going through moisture withdrawal would make it unable for me to go out with my dry skin. However, I know that my skin could no longer tolerate the moisturizer as it would always itch crazily whenever I apply moisturizer to moisturize my skin. Hence, I finally resorted to stop using all moisturizers. I’m currently on my third day into moisturizer withdrawal and I am pretty happy with my decision. My skin feels less itchy, and I could sleep pretty well at night without having to sleep through the itch. However, I think I became more afraid of getting in touch with water as a result. After I showered the day before, the crazy itch sensation came back and hit me real hard. So I’ve decided to just shower once every few days if I’m not going out. Haha it’s really an irony when I come to think about it because I used to be a clean freak in the past but now I’m doing whatever it takes to stop my body from feeling the itch even if it means I have to make myself “dirty” to do so. But at the current stage, my priority is definitely itch >>>>>>> cleanliness. Who cares about being clean if I can’t stop scratching my body while keeping my body clean. I definitely can’t get any tasks done while I’m itching like crazy and I am determined to do well this semester.

Today’s also the start of a new semester! Let’s hope that I get to start and end this semester right~ 😀

Sixty seconds – Chapter 4.2

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Merry Christmas everyone!! Hohoho it’s the season for everyone to spread their joy and love ❤ Although my family doesn't really celebrate christmas, it remains as one of my favourite holiday because I love the ambience that comes along with this festive season.

Also, sorry for the lack of updates for this month! I've been trying to spend my holidays wisely by watching lots of shows and playing lots of mobile games haha. 😅 My condition has been quite manageable although I am experiencing similar symptoms as the previous month. But I suppose the absence of schoolwork made it a lot easier for me to handle the withdrawal symptoms. I am actually shedding a lot of skin right now and I am still unable to sleep well for the past month but I am generally happy.

However, as the holidays is coming to an end soon, it means that I'll have to handle my academics once again for another semester. To be frank, I am slightly worried if it would turn out to be another semester 3 which was disastrous if I were to describe that semester in a word. I received my exam results yesterday, and although I fared a lot poorer than the previous two semesters, I am thankful to have passed all my modules. That being said, I can't help but to wonder how would my grades be if I didn't have to go through such ordeal. I hope that this makes me more motivated to do well next semester. Even though I would have a lot lesser time everyday to study, I just need to make those short study time as productive as possible.

Sixty seconds – Chapter 3.6

Finally ended my third semester in university! Spent my afternoon giving this blog a makeover and I’m pretty satisfied with the outcome 🙂

This week has been an emotional ride for me; broke down twice because of the itch and stress from finals. Even till now, I find it hard to control my itch. It’s just the feeling of having millions of bugs crawling under my skin that drives me crazy. I wished I could stop scratching but preventing myself from doing so only made me broke down in front of my family instead. I hate breaking down in front of anyone and I would always try to bear my tears until I’m alone but this time it was simply hard to prevent those tears from rushing out. Also, the itch forced me to stop my revision totally for one of my paper because of the state I was in at that point of time. As a result, I screwed that paper the next day.

Thankfully, I managed to revise for the last two paper with relatively calmed skin. Right after my last paper though, which was on Thursday night, I started flaring again. Currently experiencing red skin and rather intense itch all over my body. I hope that the duration for this flare would be shorter than the previous flare though since I am not really under much pressure right now. About to catch up with some movies and dramas soon! Yay~

I’ll also be updating my other pages to make them look nicer! Can’t wait 🙂

Sixty seconds – Chapter 3.4

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Two of my close friends gave this to me as part of my birthday present as they hope that aromatherapy could help relieve some of my stress. Once again, I gotta emphasize how thankful I am to have such great friends despite myself being a guilty bad friend. I love them so much that I hope that I could do something to express my gratitude to them.

My condition for the past few days has been getting better in general, except that I am still itching very badly. I don’t know if that is due to the amount of stress that I am under nowadays but every time I itch and scratch, lots of dry skin shredded as a result. Some parts of my skin feels very smooth so I guess I am currently at my cool down period. But I’m afraid that it would be a short-lived one if I were to judge by my menstrual cycle. I hope that my skin can stay relatively calm before my exams ends just so that I can do well for my papers. I simply do not want the same thing that happened during my bio finals to happen again. It has caused by grade for that particular module to suffer so badly that I got so depressed upon knowing my results as I did put in the effort for that paper but my skin and the itch wasn’t being kind to me at that point of time. :/

I still have so much left to study but at least I could spend a little time each day to study which was a lot better than before since I was totally unable to settle down and study just a week ago. May this week be kind to me as I mug hard.

Sixty seconds – Chapter 3.2

Since I am unable to fall asleep yet, and to prevent myself from scratching my body to pass time, I shall blog!

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So today (or rather, yesterday), my father and I went to visit tcm. He gave me more medicine to drink each day because I told him that I was still itching badly both in the day and night. It started raining after we visited the sensei so we had lunch and shopped at fairprice while waiting for the rain to stop. And so, during the time when we were alone together, my dad kept telling me about how I should exert my self control to stop my scratching. Well, I can only say 说的容易做的难. I have been trying hard in telling myself to stop scratching every single time my skin itches but I always gave in to the pleasure I receive during those scratches. That being said, I will still try to exert more self control to stop scratching and prevent further skin damages but this is really something that I cannot promise to fulfill because I tend to scratch when I am under pressure and it’s the exam period now.

My dad understands that I gave myself too much stress already thus he tries his best to buy whatever food I want to eat, which is just anything with fish haha because I am controlling my diet right now in hopes of having a less inflamed body. So after the rain became more manageable for us to switch locations, he brought me to this mini cafe which was just opposite my house to enjoy a cup of hot milo. Just my little sinful pleasure for controlling my diet by not eating a lot of other food that I looooooooove heheh.

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After that, he brought my family and I to parkway parade, our usual place to go to when we have sashimi for dinner. He said he wanted me to have a change of taste after eating just fish beehoon soup for several consecutive days. So I had sashimi and cha soba! It was absolutely delicious 😋 yummy. I am definitely blessed to have such loving parents, although I get irritated when they nag a lot, but they are also the ones that are willing to go that extra mile just to make me feel slightly happier or comfortable. I can never imagine going through tsw without them because it would have sucked a lot like hell. But I think they have pampered me in a way where I’m in a state where I cannot suffer much during this tsw process.

Enough of me talking about my parents, now that finals is roughly one week and three days away, I’m still far from prepared for it. I haven’t been able to sit myself down for the past few days to catch up on my webcast but I’ve been clearing my readings while trying to do stretches or simple leg workout just to keep myself from feeling itchy. I hope that I can start watching them from tmr onwards so that I will still have time for revision.

Sigh, I’m at the end of the entry but I’m still far from being asleep. Why isn’t the anti-histamine pills working??? Got to think of other ways to kill time now, goodbye 👋

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On my way to school with my pink skin~ I’ve more or less gotten used to people staring at me from top to bottom, probably scrutinizing my skin and secretly judging me. Not hiding my skin with long pants not long sleeves today because my skin is flaking and I don’t like the feeling of my skin flaking onto my clothes 😐